Love in Ruins

I was around this planet,

Loving and revolving as if it were my own.

But then the planet exploded,

Leaving me empty,just like that.

I thought it shattered into pieces,

But it was me who was shattered,

Flooding with agony that cut so deep,

Too broken ever to be mended.

The planet was mine

Or at least I thought so.

But like all good things in this world,

It was never meant for me.

I knew it from the start,

And yet I chose to love.

For loving was all I knew,

And still, it is all I know.

It knew my fears and scars,

Yet still it chose to explode on me

As if I were something

That could never be loved.

I believed it was love

Oh, silly me! It was Pity though.

Fools rush to love,

And I fell straight into the predator.

I felt like trash,

Never to be reused,

So useless I was thrown

Again and again into the landfills.

Maybe to yearn for love

Is too much for me to ask.

Maybe I don’t deserve that love,

Or to be chosen at all.

The train of insecurities 

Catered my pain

Maybe not that pretty enough 

Maybe not fair to be loved.

All those years of ignorance 

All flushed through me that moment 

Oh ! That horrifying pain

Of being unseen and unheard.

I was numb for years,

But it made me feel

Something so strong,

Strong enough to destroy me.

I knew I’d be struck off one day,

I knew I’d be thrown like trash.

Yet I chose to stay,

For my love was too deep.

I feel used, I feel killed,

With this savouring sorrow,

And this vast hollow

Building walls of insecurity.

I was dead, then killed again—

Fate showed me no mercy.

But maybe I can show mercy,

So that someone else may never know these tears.