For You🍁💕 My 🦋|🤫|
I really don't know, whether you'd read this or not. And if you do, some day, just know that I love you. No matter where you are, whom you are with, I'd always love you. Even if we stop talking, just know that I'd always love you.
If someday when you read this(even if you are with someone else), I wanted to tell you something that I've never told you.
If you don't understand my English just give to someone who could make you understand because I really want you to understand this.
*First of all this blog is created for you (okay I am not crying)
*If you get time go through my poems, I guess most of my poems were written for you. I wrote about my pain, my fear of losing you and my limitless love for you.
*I was always afraid that I'm gonna lose you someday, that fate is gonna pull us part.
*I know everything was because of our situations, I always prayed for these situations to get better. As of now nothing has got better. Really don't know if it would.
*I cannot bear the sight of you being with someone else. I would always regret that I didn't have you.
*Okay if you get time just go through my poems. Everything was meant for you but I knew that you would never understand what it really meant. I knew that you would never spend time to read these stuffs as well.
*I really wish if you could really love me for at least one day, without looking at our situations without looking at our family pressure, without looking at the society. I wish you really loved me for me. Now I just think that I don't even deserve your love.
*Maybe I don't deserve anybody's love. Maybe I was not meant to be loved. But it's fine.
*You know I'm such a powerful lady, I'd be happy for you as long as you are happy. But just know that I'd never stop loving you. And I wanted not to as well.
*Just know that you are an amazing person whom I've ever met in my entire life. You deserve happiness, love, company, and all the pleasures of life. You have the potential to be a great person just don't limit yourself. You are beyond anything that you could ever imagine.
* I had a million things to tell you. And probably you won't understand anything. Why I am putting this in this blog is because when the time is right, when you are ready to understand me and my writings of course, then only God would let you go through this. When you go through this just know that this is my love for you.
*Just know that I loved you for what you are I know your imperfections I know your perfections as well and I love you for both.
*I always feel special when you observe the slightest thing about me and I always feel valuable whenever you tell me even the minute things in your life .I feel like a family. Your family.
*Maybe the time when you are reading this, we would definitely be strangers. You might have probably stoped talking to me. You might be saving yourself from pain. I knew You have to choose, but I always knew that it would never be me and I am ok with it.
*Just know that you are always there in my heart no matter what. The rain the sun the moon, the butterflies, the songs everything makes me remember you.
*Even though it was not the reason that I fell in love with you, still you are my favourite singer.
*Life is hard my love and it is high time that I should accept that and move on. But moving on it's not an option for me because
"How can I move on when I'm still in love with you"
*I always felt that I have not been doing right to you by making you wait this long though at the core of my heart, I knew nothing's gonna work out. Maybe I wished to believe the other way around.
*The more I don't want to let you go, the more I don't wish to tie you down to me as well. Because for me Love is Freedom, freedom to choose. I'm not sad that no one chooses me, and no one prioritises me. But just know that I'd always choose you, in this life or in the next if there is any.
*Maybe now I'm also weak to fight, because I'm running out of time. All I knew was to wait for the best.
*I guess you know waiting wasn't easy.
But what if you were waiting this long to lose. But I'm ready to lose for you.
* Not choosing me was right, though it hurt me, that was the only right thing that you could ever do.
*But I still wish if you did loved me like I did, atleast for one day
Because now when I look back
I never got love
I was praying for a one side love
I was in a relationship with you which didn't even have a name
I was not able to call you my lover or my friend because sometimes we were more than lovers and the next second we are strangers. This has already killed me a million times.
I wish atleast for one day, you'd love me for me without the situations, without fear, the imperfections and perfections in me .
I drew you many times, Do you know how much time it takes to draw a portrait, minimum 13 to 17 hours. And when I show you, you just give a smiley or thumbsup and my art dies there. Now I've stopped drawing portraits. Why I tell you this is because my art was my love for you but you never saw that.
The songs I sing was for you, but you never heard.
Whatever! past shits... Leave it
No complaints
We all have our own messes and it's fine.
You just know that I love you and I wanted you to be happy, with or without me.
I'm used to failure and I guess I'd get used to this failure of losing you as well.
But I love you....
I still love you....
You'll always be my Butterfly 🦋❤️
And I'd always will....no matter what, no matter who you are with.
Atleast I don't have to pay taxes to love you 😂
To my kochu
With lots and lots of love 💓
Aardra
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