Nonsense 🫣
World moves really fast and so does truths and ideas. Nights are always my personal time to think (of how miserable my life is 😂).Is it really miserable? Or is it me blowing things up? Failures, insecurities, losing the people I love, Life has really put me in a descending roller coaster. On every steeps, I fear of falling but somehow gathers up the courage to hold myself together. (Silly! I was bragging).But still I am a survivor of my own self made misfortunes😂.
Night is really the time for me to chew the cud. Ok I am that silly woman talking nonsense in the middle of the night. Anyway who cares?
Just tell me, Am I the only one who feels too lonely that my brooding turns to tears gradually. Literally every day I go to sleep crying. For what? God knows 😌 what.
I seriously don't remember the last day when I was honestly happy. Now all I could feel is some stupid numbness. And a big hollow digging deeper into my heart. How can I fill myself? Spiritually🫣, friends 🤷,love (well true love has become an endangered species, very rare to find.... Even if you find, you literally live everyday in fear that it's going to get extinct soon).
As per Eric Erickson , I am stuck in the stage of Intimacy Vs Isolation. ( Ofcourse I am at the isolation side😂. Don't you dare think the other way). Wait from where did this Erickson come now🫣?
I am not perfect but I am not bad either. But when this Emptiness savours me, all I could see in the mirror is an Antihero of my own life.
Talking about Antihero... Taylor Swift's Antihero has literally shook me. You know I am that stupid romantic who falls in love with everything connected to the things and people I love. So if I love Taylor Swift, definitely I'd love her song Antihero.
To be seen is really an honour . I know I've been scribbling some random thoughts like in Virginia Woolf's and James Joyce Stream of consciousness novels. (I know you won't accept mine next to their's.) But trust me you are going to read me one day.
The night is still young and so is me .Shush... I know I'm 25 going on to 26 and has grown like that tree with large leaves😂 (of course vazha🌱.) But you know age is just a number. Anyway, will continue with this nonsense soon. Adieu to those lovely eyes who reached this finishing point. Your reward is my unconditional love for you. Sending you lots of love. Goodbye lovely soul. Thanks for hearing me out. Thanks for seeing me.
Like the beauty of this winter night
May your beauty trespass the heating troubles of life
With Love
Me and my Cherry 🐠 (will tell you about my Cherry next time)
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