Love met Butterflies🦋❤🌍

Sitting in the balcony Staring at the blazing Sky Down with despair, I wait Counting random flights Flying with loads of hope. I wait with Hope for Hope.  The swan's song echoes In everything around  But I Chose Hope instead  To hope for hope Is indeed a duel with life. In loneliness I chose to hope Ignored, unseen, used,  Put into grief, and left alone,  I struggled alone every second  But I chose to hope Friends, I loved them But they debated with me It was just fun for me But they hated me for my insights  And left without words. Parents, I loved them Provided me a whole world But couldn't know me for real "I'm a parent, not your friend" But why this hurts so much?  Was I just their responsibility? When I needed someone to talk,  They turned their back on me. When I needed Love, I recieved silence instead.  I lived in that silence for weeks My heart burnt with pain.  My man,I loved him He who breathes like honey, Wasn...

To begin with, I hate marriage as a whole.  This may not be an objective review of the " The Damn Marriage System in Kerala". But I swear educated self sufficient women will definitely agree with me.  Anyway why on earth do we need marriage?  Parents: To have generations? Oh, F**k that! Society: You'll end up alone. May be true. Me: As if I am not alone right now🤣 Ok ! What if I get divorced, then who would I have? I seriously wish If Protestants had some monastery for nuns.... I'd have definitely joined there just to escape marriage. Social Context for Marriage to take place in Kerala: * Bride and groom same caste, religion, class, and good family background. *Extra qualifications: (for dumb families like mine) Government job compulsory, a person who is extremely spiritual. (They get to know this just by the words of some random people whom they talk for the first time in their life) My Story: I loved a man. He was so sweet. Okay! I still love him. We were in love. ...

" Have you ever loved me?" I used to wonder when all my kisses were discarded with a " Hmm" "What does that even mean?" It's alright... Maybe he is afraid. " Did he really wish to see me?"  I always wonder when all the selfies I sent him, gets ignored without a reply. ( Without even a reaction) I don't know if I am fussing over silly things, but for me these silly things make my day. The worst thing is that, getting ignored takes me back to my Manson of insecurities. "God! Why am I even crying right now?" I don't know, my heart feels so heavy 😔. "Am I not worth loving?" I wonder everytime he talks about his future that does not involve me. My heart breaks into a million pieces whenever he mentions a future without an 'Us'.  (Ok .... I am not throbbing now) Maybe I don't deserve love. Or else why do all my efforts go unseen. "Why I always feel myself as a flesh standing in front of him....

Alone in that empty room You could hear her song More like a dirge She was in pieces. Longing for Love, Haunted by an eternal Mirage of Love Savoured by filthy lusty heaps of sand Her life turned a scary desert. In every eyes, she dug for love Like for a water of hope But she found only butchers Aiming for her flesh.